So far, so good!

Orestes took the news better than I expected. Naturally he’s a little put off but he otherwise seems fine. Aegisthus has been coming over almost every day and I’m hoping that Orestes can see that we are truly happy together in a way his father and I never were. Who knows maybe he could eventually look up to Aegisthus the way he does his father?

Bond, Clytemnestra Bond.

I feel like I am living a double life. I go from mother and homemaker seeing Orestes off to school and cleaning the house, to love-struck teenager when Aegisthus comes over. Ever since that kiss we have seen each other every day and the kisses have escalated into much more. We’ve discussed what we are going to do when Agamemnon gets back and divorce seems like the only option. Considering I would have next to no financial support Aegisthus has encouraged me to start a career and in the mean time he would happily provide for me and the kids. I’ve started applying for jobs in the surrounding cities like Tyrins and Lerna and am excited for what the future holds. The only damper on this whole plan is how Orestes will react. I’ve decided I don’t want to hide my relationship with Aegisthus so I’m going to tell him tonight after dinner.

Did that just happen?

I did something wrong. Well, it felt right. But technically it’s wrong. A few months have passed since Aegisthus and I had that meaningful conversation, and today he was acting like his usual flirty and overly friendly self. What made today special (and blog-worthy) is that this time when he made his advances, I didn’t refuse. Ever since we’ve become so close I’ve found myself asking why I should. When I’m with him I’m the happiest I’ve been in a long time, he makes me feel beautiful, like a woman, and he seems to genuinely feel for me the way I do for him. Also, it’s not like the man I’m being faithful to is doing me the same courtesy. So today, when Aegisthus held my hand and leant in for that kiss, I did not pull away.

An emotional and eventful month.

Orestes and I have been home for a month now. I just couldn’t bring myself to write before now. Agamemnon has taken my Iphigenia away from me. Everything was a ploy. Wanting to see the kids, the young up and comer – all of it. He just wanted to get Iphigenia over there to help with the business. He offered her a job and after she signed the contract he sent her off to some remote village to do research where there is no contact with the outside world and won’t be indefinitely. I COULD NOT SEE HER FOR YEARS. He did this all behind my back!! As soon as I found out what he did I took Orestes and came straight home.

The situation is so close to events in my past that old memories and hurt have been filling my head and heart for weeks. I don’t know what I would have done if Aegisthus hadn’t been here to support me. Not only has he been my rock, but has had such a soothing effect on me he even got me to open up about my past. I told him about my previous family, my husband Tantalus and children, how they too were taken away, but in this case at the hand of Mycenaean Corp. products. How Agamemnon and I only became acquainted and in turn married due to a compensation deal which would provide for me and protect and save the face of the company. We were never in love, the marriage was more of a business transaction, but Agamemnon showed some humanity in agreeing to the deal. I told Aegisthus all of this and he listened, then shared his own troubled past. I don’t know how to describe it, but after this conversation something changed between us. I feel like I am closer to him than I’ve been to anyone in a long time.

Troy here we come!

We are leaving tomorrow for Troy, I spoke to Agamemnon quickly and he mentioned something about a young up and comer from the business who would be good for Iphigenia. Again, his interest in the kids’ lives shocked me. But in this case it likely has some kind of benefit for Mycenaean Corp., this young up and comer ‘Achilles’ probably has something Agamemnon wants.

Chryseis, Cassandra, Clytemnestra? Whatever.

It’s been a while since I last posted and things have been happening. Firstly Agamemnon’s been away for months now and we’ve yet to receive a single phone call. I don’t mind so much but Orestes really looks up to his father (pains me to say it) and it would mean a lot to him if he called. This is especially the case as whenever Orestes calls him there is no answer. Today I tried to get in touch with him and actually succeeded, he finally picked up! But what does he say when he answers?  “Chryseis, is that you?... Cassandra?” Try Clytemnestra you despicable man. I shouldn’t have been shocked really to hear other women’s names as I always suspected he was not faithful to our ‘marriage’ as I was. But it was just unfortunate for him that I happened to get this evidence of his sleeping around when I had yet to grill him over the whole Demodocus issue.

Once I’d shouted for a good twenty minutes, I brought up the reason for my call. I couldn’t have been more surprised when he agreed that not only hadn’t he had much contact with the kids, but that I should bring them over for a week so he could see them. I have never been so shocked in my life. However not wanting to jinx what I was hearing I quickly agreed and booked the flights for three weeks from today. Orestes will be so glad.

In other news, I took Aegisthus up on his offer for coffee and it’s since become a weekly thing. Sometimes two times a week. I can’t describe how nice it is to be with someone who listens to what I have to say. I feel we have grown much closer these past few months and that I’ve found someone I can truly trust.

Seedy old man, obnoxious husband and handsome neighbour – all in a day

For the past few months not much has happened, same old same old. Kids are fine, a few conversations with and smiles from Aegisthus... And then today something which made me livid. After coming back from dropping Orestes off at school I found the old gardener Demodocus snooping around my bedroom! Naturally I screamed at him and demanded to know what he was doing. Aegisthus was just leaving for work when he heard my screaming and came rushing inside through the door I’d left open. We managed to get it out of Demodocus that Agamemnon had paid him extra to keep an eye on me!! Who does Agamemnon think he is? A King? While listening to me rant and rave Aegisthus permanently dismissed Demodocus, and then continued to listen patiently as I apologised profusely for involving him and making him late for work... It was humiliating. Yet, somehow I believed him when he said he didn’t mind. Hmm.